Don’t you love it when there’s that time of the day where there is almost a 360 degree spin, turning your horrible day almost automatically into a good one? I was walking on my street where my house resides, I usually have my ipod plugged in the ears and blasting. Even though my mom always yells at me for blasting my music, I literally love it more than a trip to ihop. It blocks out everything realistic and imaginable. Thinking no longer finds its way back into my brain for a couple of minutes. At this moment on the street, when passion pit shuffled its way on, I found myself walking in more of a stride and smiling. Music can connect all the odds and ends of my body and light them up, making me feel alive again.

 

I was just checking up on the blog and all the other various website accounts I manage. That’s when I saw a say anything ad up on my blog. It was like my fingertips responded and went into action. I just got finished watching 13 going on 30. I do not care what anybody says, that movie is great. Now I am typing away as I hear the voices of Mr. and Mrs. Jim Halpert on screen. There’s sort of a mini office marathon on right now and when that’s done, I’ll probably go watch some more. I am in the mood for tv tonight. My boyfriend has got me into that show top gear. It’s a guy show. I am learning a new language where we can both communicate. Basically, it has to do with cars and I finally have an idea what that boy talks about.

 

Sidetracking. If you’ve seen the episode where Jim and Pam get married, you remember how Andy tears his scrotum? I made fun of my boyfriend because he hangs his keys right near that area and I told him not to do a split with those keys there. He really did not get the joke at first but those who watch the show know what I am talking about.

 

Oh and I like that song by Sean Kingston that has to do with his ipod stuck on replay. Lmfaoo. 　

 

I close my eyes as I search for a path leading to his mind. We could be in a room together, feet apart and share a little secret that nobody knows what we are feeling.

 

Literally. It wont wake up, meaning that the screen is blankly black and nothing will come up. It constantly restarts itself and I have no idea how to fix it. My dad attempted to take it apart and put the pieces back but it wont seem to come back to life. I am miserable without. I am so pathetic lmfao. For now I will be surfing around on my brother’s laptop or the desktop. That wont be comfortable at all.

 

Waking up by the forcing sunlight sinking its way into my room is somehow relaxing. That feeling of space and gravity floating around my room as I hid under the comforter. I rub my eyes and stretch. Another day living.

 

I am gross and I need a shower. I want to be buried underground and away from society just for today. I would usually lock myself in my room but I am expanding my horizons and moving over to the living room. I do not feel like doing anything today. I am so lazy. I probably will cook up something great and much on that until two. My cousins are coming over because my cousin has to go to a party down the street. I borrowed a camera from school. I came back around ninth period to show my photo teacher my contact sheet that took forever to make. She was very impressed with the photos that I saved from exposure. It’s a good feeling when people compliment you on hard work.

 

Cold winter weather brings back memories that are the ones that I want to remember forever. Nothing bad has ever happened during this time of year. I grow closer to the family and closer to discovering the rest of me. I am just beginning but I am running to the end. I love the path I have taken ever since I crawled out of that dark hole. I am growing to love who I am starting to become. Life is good. Don’t sit around and complain about it. You just have to do anything in my power to make it happen.

 

I want to grow old with the love of my life and go for walks in the park together hand in hand. At times we find our selves just laying in bed and little bits of our bodies are touching. It is not much but you can feel the electricity between us glowing through our bodies. When I get upset or angry, I love the way he hugs me from behind saying, ‘I still love you even when you’re angry’. I might not see him everyday, but I know he is out there thinking of me. It is healthy for your body to be in love. Go find it. It IS worth it. Only certain people deserve it the most.

 

And this reminds me, I lent Oscar my ipod touch for the weekend after I dropped him off yesterday night. This was slightly a mistake. I need my music.

 

I swear I will maul whoever steals my ideas. Watch out for the wild things today. The CNN says they’re roaming around the forests today.

 

 

 

 

 

 

worthwhile after all. 

 

My boyfriend is so cheesy. At the moment, he is singing forever young. Oh wait scratch that, he just switched to that one song about getting out of the ghetto and getting his mama a crib. He only sings to me, which is not that surprising. Walking into English, Oscar opened the door today. A couple girls aw’ed. That reminded me that my boyfriend is such a gentleman. He’s silly and always is there for me.

 

The past few days have been alright, but dreading. I want to go shopping. I have cash set up. I am want a vacation. I literally have not been on a vacation with the family in four years. Next year might change. I am excited. School is getting annoying. It really needs to be over with. Chemistry never really bothers me for some reason. Even the smell of photo developer is getting to me.

 

The cold weather is freezing me. Things are getting sweeter. They might take a turn for the worse in a few days. Let’s enjoy it and not bite each others heads off this week.

 

So, I really have no idea to type about. ahitty blog. real stufff soooon. Peaceoutbeeeeee.

 

 

Happy Halloween interweb. Now we all know my last years Halloween was a little fucked up but this year I hope this will all change. I seriously am having the best days lately. Yesterday was probably the greatest day of my life. Nothing bad happened. Not to mention I listened to THE NEW SAY ANYTHING ALBUM a few days early. Max Bemis is a genius. Their music inspires me. Nothing can beat them.

 

I woke up in that calm atmosphere that I love. It was quiet. The only movement was my body breathing and the grey autumn light and dust floating in the empty space of my room. Tonight I will find myself over in butterhill with my boyfriend and best friends. I feel a little selfish leaving my mother and little brother alone to spend Halloween with themselves. Watch me change my mind last second and hang out with them instead. Family is very important. I need to spend the remaining time before I hit adulthood with them.

 

Tomorrow is just a day to anybody else. To myself, it is just a bit special. It glitters compared to the others. I got my boyfriend a little gift. Just a bag of things. Shirts, boxers, and cookies. You would not get the joke. He gave me a bear hug where I could hardly breath. I convince myself when does that the air in my body exchanges with his. One year and eight months and my body will not let go. Everybody says we are going to get married. I know it’s silly but I know we really are<3

 

I will probably blog again later. This one is just notes and bullets on things. I am beginning to like English class. Maybe that is only because there is a possibility that we might later read Gatsby next year. Check out the flickr. The updated a good five little pictures. I need a new place to explore. Everybody is learning all of my secrets. I really am too indie for shit like that.